J'ai Honte

"I'm ashamed."

"I'm ashamed."

The next planet was inhabited by a tippler. This was a very short visit, but it plunged the little prince into deep dejection.
“What are you doing there?” he said to the tippler, whom he found settled down in silence before a collection of empty bottles and also a collection of full bottles.
“I am drinking,” replied the tippler, with a lugubrious air.
“Why are you drinking?” demanded the little prince.
“So that I may forget,” replied the tippler.
“Forget what?” inquired the little prince, who already was sorry for him.
“Forget that I am ashamed,” the tippler confessed, hanging his head.
“Ashamed of what?” insisted the little prince, who wanted to help him.
“Ashamed of drinking!” The tippler brought his speech to an end, and shut himself up in an impregnable silence.
And the little prince went away, puzzled.
”The grown-ups are certainly very, very odd,” he said to himself, as he continued on his journey.
— The Little Prince, Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

The Tippler's reasoning leads to ongoing self-deception and isolation. Some of this week's energy might make you feel like the Tippler, so let's take a look.

Last week the Sun and New Moon in Virgo made an opposition to Chiron. Chiron is a small, powerful planet that is an archetype of the wounded healer. Aspects to Chiron activate your soul's wound: the area in your life that may always feel vulnerable and painful, but has the potential to become a source of strength and healing to yourself and others.

Today Mars, planet of action and will, is opposite Neptune; and later this week, Venus, planet of love and relatedness, will trace the same path. Neptune, whether you decide to go high or low, is the planet of either compassion and spiritual communion, or illusion, delusion, addiction, and anxiety. 

This week, the combination of these planets in opposition may promote despair, disappointment, and a lack of confidence. Another underlying transit that may join in to raise the irritation level is Saturn square Chiron, which has been going on for all of 2017. Their square is playing a similar uncomfortable tune, and may leave you feeling not competent to meet your responsibilities.

If you feel despondent, try to plug into creative outlets like music, movement, or writing to process the energy. At the most basic level, it is important to acknowledge and remember your original wounds. If Neptune encourages cloudiness, these strategies will help you find some clarity until the energy passes through this week. Responsibilities may make us "grown up," but unlike the Tippler, don't choose to "forget" what has wounded you; instead try to stay with and nurture your "little" self. Like the Little Prince, try to be a childlike observer of yourself, so that you may see bad habits or self-criticism not as "normal" but as "odd" instead.

Transmissions of Virgo

Demeter/Ceres Virgo archetype holding grain in Norma Kamali window, W. 56th St., NYC

Demeter/Ceres Virgo archetype holding grain in Norma Kamali window, W. 56th St., NYC

Happy Autumnal Equinox, end of summer, entry of the Sun into Libra, when night and day are equal in length...Libra's balance is a hoped-for outcome which the purification process of Virgo makes possible. This process is still in full effect, as this week there was a New Moon in Virgo, and Mercury, Mars, and Venus are all in Virgo for the time being.

Virgo uses love as food for transmutation and healing (as opposed to food as love, which might be the Taurean approach). For example, Demeter/Ceres is both goddess of the harvest, as well as goddess of the cycle of birth and death. Virgo distills the boundless One Love essence of its opposite, Pisces, and is able to contain it on earth through discretion, focus, precision. Virgo brings analysis to Piscean confusion, and grounds its endless fluidity and spaciness through hygiene, routine, habit, and technique. 

Virgo's bad wrap has to do with its best characteristics on steroids: compartmentalizing and OCD, perfectionism, criticism. Virgo in its top form can bring the sensuality of physical body together with mind and spirit. The archetype of the self-contained temple priestess is an example of how Virgo is not a sexual virgin at all, but can make sexual healing a spiritual service. To experience an integrated devotion to self and other, the love as food has to be used not only to heal others, but to know and heal the self as well. When that is the case, we can know both partners are on board when Marvin Gaye sings, "I can't wait for you to operate."

Summer Eclipses in Aquarius and Leo: The IC Grill

Going down to go up.

Going down to go up.

If you stand right fronting and face to face to a fact, you will see the sun glimmer on both its surfaces, as if it were a cimeter, and feel its sweet edge dividing you through the heart and marrow, and so you will happily conclude your mortal career. Be it life or death, we crave only reality.
— Henry David Thoreau, Walden

On August 7 there is a Lunar Eclipse in Aquarius, and on August 21 there is a Solar Eclipse in Leo. The Leo/Aquarius axis are two sides of the same coin. They are opposite each other in the astrology chart and have very different characteristics, but they need each other to balance, like a see saw needs two kids to be any fun. 

As part of my subway commute, I transfer to the 7 train at Court Square. As the escalator ascends, I catch a peek of a cafe out on the street through the steel elevated subway columns that I can only discern as "The IC Grill." In astrology, the IC (or "Imum coeli," Latin for "bottom of the sky") is the angle of the natal astrology chart that correlates to childhood, what brings you comfort, or somehow answers what is "home" for you, including emotionally how you come to feel at home. It is the place to find your soul.

Aquarius learns best through experience, so what experiences have "fed" you over the years? What do you truly enjoy, what makes you feel good or bad? Lunar eclipses can be about feeling, acknowledging, bringing awareness, endings, and completion.

So, for this Aquarius Lunar Eclipse on August 7, bring an awareness to those things you know about yourself and cook them on the "IC Grill"; use the ingredients you like the best, and get rid of the ones you never liked, or know now that you don't.

The IC has some similarity in meaning to the Moon and the South Node, so the ability to feel and work with these characteristics within yourself is very strong during this particular Eclipse season.

The Leo Solar Eclipse on August 21 is conjunct the North Node, and opposite the South Node. This intensifies the energy of your Sun/life purpose. The Sun and heart are ruled by Leo. What brings you joy? Where can you take a risk to express yourself?

You can clear space with the Lunar Eclipse, revisit what makes your soul feel cozy, and use the things that ground you (or grew you) to move into exhilarating, uncharted territory. 

Today's Mood: The Sad and the Restless

FIT mural woman photo by Willa Johnson

FIT mural woman photo by Willa Johnson

A few things going on in the astrological sky today (Mars changing from Cancer to Leo and Uranus squaring the Sun) may reinforce feelings of sadness, anger, and frustration. Try to take the long view on these feelings, although the desire to do something unproductive and/or goad others may feel quite urgent. Feel the discomfort in yourself, and it may lead you to savor how you might take action and create changes that benefit you as we move into Eclipse season.

All Eyes on Justice

I asked the Tarot de Marseille cards what would be a helpful way to read the energy of the recent solar eclipse from February 26. The Sun, Moon, Mercury, Neptune, and South Node were in Pisces, which gave us an opening to release all that is no longer needed. What do you feel you need to do to grow? We are still in this eclipse season until mid-March, and will be working with the energy until August, when there will be another set of eclipses.

I picked 3 cards. Here is what came up:


La Force (Strength), Nameless Arcanum (Death), and Justice

In this order, the figures of Strength and Death face Justice. They look toward her to guide them. Justice sits on her throne and looks directly at you. It is as if a ball is in the air, and everyone is frozen in a moment that has expanded in anticipation of a result. Will Justice catch the ball? No, she is not a player in that game. The ball will be dropped. How that is interpreted, and the journey one takes afterward, is important, not necessarily the outcome.

What are the elements in Strength and Death that can be harnessed to reach Justice? 

Strength is energy in potential. It is important to allow the energy to circulate freely. Allow yourself to work with any discomfort so that it might be released to open the flow of abundance to you. Things can happen quickly and expand. Use your human physicality, instinct, and desire to explore this. 

Death demands purification by plowing the fertile ground presented by Strength. Together, the two are searching: it is not a comfortable union, but there is potential for genuine teamwork and power created by their mutuality. Although it looks grisly because he plows body parts, Death and Strength can combine beautifully to incarnate consciousness. They can build a bridge that circulates between humanity and spirituality.

Jodorowsky writes that Justice is “a point at which the human and the Divine meet." Justice brings order and balance to the chaos of transformation. It would help you to welcome the transformation, be open to change. It is important to be honest about what drives you, and then transmute it. What is Justice asking you? What can you do to reach the objective that is Justice? Use your natural human strengths and the energy of change to accomplish something divine.